2G`o5 chalet was supposed to end tomorrow, but i decided to come back earlier today. 'cause they wanted to go escape and play till night and escape freaks the hell out of me (why? 'cause i'm a big timid wimp and a big loser at theme park rides) so i thought that I should come back and get some sleep, after all tomorrow they're checking out at 1030am. oh well but I'll be missing out the fun tonight they're having I guess, just freaking out on the bed and telling ghost stories and stuff. oh, I'm gonna miss the sunrise too lol. but this chalet was much better than last year's, but it was er, average. nothing interesting happened. didn't do much at all, there was nothing to do but sit around and stone for me. but nevertheless, I couldn't wait to get back home today. Like I wanted to fly home straight and not walk under the bloody hot sun. I miss my bed, my bolster, my pooh bear, my blanket, my pillow and tv muahaha. I was so deprived during the chalet LMAO. Being home sure feels GOOD, the same familiar cosy feeling I'll get. I realised that I miss and love my home a lot, I suddenly don't feel like moving out anymore HAHA. but oh well, it sure is nice to know that I've got a place that's mine, meant for me. sigh, i think i'm having second thoughts about hating and running away from home ^^v well i look forward to badminton's chalet in december! all the gay, porn, cards and MAHJONG! (:
yesterday i arrived the chalet (saw joewee and his stead at downtown east!), then played some cards before the rest arrived. I kinda got a little too high or something, I couldn't stop screaming. man I think the rest were irritated by me or something haha. but then i kinda lost energy screaming and started to feel sleepy again lol. oh, and there was this funny conversation we had while in the room (:
tiffy: char did you bring your cam?
me: eh, no.
tiffy: har.. kelly did you bring your cam?
lelly: huh? yes, i brought my visor.
tiffy: isn't it SPOILT?
me: O.o;;
yt: *thinks SPORT* O.o;;
GAWD. the usual lelliness. :D all hearing the wrong things. communication breakdown haha.
then we all went to play at the beach! TRIED TO play volleyball in the water but it was kinda like a failure haha. everyone was caring more about no getting their clothes dirty. lelly, yt, grace and i built a big sandcastle! (with like twigs and leafs at the top lol) didn't take a picture though, hands were dirty. it was supposed to be effiel tower, with a tunnel through it haha. pretty successful. washed off the sand in the sea, just kinda soaked in the sea for a while before going for a bath before the bbq.
after the whole bbq, we girls sat around the bed, with the guys busy playing their xbox. watched tv then went for bowling! YEEHAW~ it was my first time bowling i was so nervous lol. i have never stuck my fingers in the bowling ball before lol. but bowling was very fun! in fact i got a score of 60+ for both of the games each, and even striked once! yohoho. not bad for a first timer eh? x) natural talent what no? KIDDING x) it was fun yo. i wanna bowl again! but i broke like three nails KNNBCCB. spent so much time keeping them, filing them, painting them and now they look so deformed and fkdup can.
then at 1am we scared ourselves back into the chalet lol. started talking about ghosts and stuff, some were scary till i thought i was going to cry. i'm so timid and i get freaked out easily haha. it's spooky when i start to imagine all those stuffs. guorui and his stupid pontianak face. he's the one with the freaky face lol. his eyes are so big and they glow in the dark lol. not to mention that he's pretty dark lol. we all talked on the bed till about 4am plus, then went out to eat instant noodles lol. but we girls decided to get some sleep since there wasn't anything else to do. couldn't sleep anyway, the guys made a lot of noise with the xbox lol.
6am! went to watch the sunrise! wasn't very beautiful like what tiffy said, but to me it was okay. i prefer looking at the ocean though. or maybe i was too zombified to appreciate the sunrise lol. nevermind, i saw it before anyway. had breakfast together at mcdonalds, before going back to the chalet to sleep again. i think i'm like the most sleepy pig in there, felt like sleeping so much. i was like wake up, feeling like sleeping, wake up again, feel sleepy again. rawr. like the living zombie of 2G lol. only slept about an hour plus but it felt like ages! power nap/quality nap/ whatever you call it lah.
yeah and not to mention i got molested like a few times? he kinda fell and like a hand's width more upwards and there would go my motherhood and guorui will receive a flying kick in his face. a 'perfect' wake up call too. disrupt me violently from my sleep and they'll get it lol. then weicheng dunno how to balance and just fell on me again and hit me really bad at the hips. but i was too sleepy and went back to sleep soon after. then there's looly and his stupid pillows. guorui and looly put together results in so much damn gayness. all in a span of one hour lah. nevermind, all an accident. i close my eyes.
then i watched and stoned as the rest played cards. too tired to really care. like i only had enough energy to sit there and BREATHE. wahaha. after that since they wanted to go escape at 12nn so me and eunice went back first. i came home and slept for 35368546384 hours after having a pathetic lunch, till dad came back. saw me sleeping like a pig on the living room sofa with my bolster, winnie the pooh and pillow. but it was HEAVEN i don't ever want to wake up lmao.
awright, that pretty much summarises everything that happened. i've come to a conclusion that my energy level isn't very high, especially after i see PILLOWS. x) or just, a big lazy pig lah.
from tomorrow onwards, apart from sleeping, ima study so DAMN BLOODY HARD for my JLPT, because i badly want a good cert for keeps. it means alot to me i hope i can ace it, or at least be of decent standard. じゃ、がんばりましょう！^^v 必勝！
I HAD TO come online to blog about this. it's worth it y'know. today church was at 9am. I so badly didn't feel like waking up at all. IT WAS EARLY IN THE MORNING OKAY! and i'm a big sleeping pig. oh well but i didn't know why, i didn't grumble, i just went ahead to get ready.
went to church, and they had this AMAZING performance by this world reknown guitarist called alverdo sanchez if i'm not wrong? he started playing at the age of 3, and by the age of 7 he could sit down and practice the guitar for 7 hours. HOLY O_O. the flexibity of his fingers is amazing. he could do the trills (or however you spell it) and he doesn't just strum or pluck. he plucks in different ways, at the same time, which makes his music so different and amazing. the way his hands move up and down the bars, gosh it must have took years of practice. and he has ears so finely tuned to music, and he could say that the instrument sounded IMPERFECT though to me i thought it was tuned correctly. he played christmas songs for us and even composed a song for us. man he's a music genius, a master at guitar. he played in front of queen elizabeth before! (: and and there's another thing that ONLY HE CAN DO AND OTHERS CAN'T. he can pluck his guitar, and at the same time, use the strings of the guitar to play the sound of the drums. it sounded IMPOSSIBLE till i heard it for myself. it's clearly a gift from God, that no one else has. his performance was marvellous, i can't even describe it properly. you really have to SEE it.
when one hears his music, it sounds great, different and unique. like something only a pro can do. but when i was scrutinising his fingers and the way he played it, he incorporated many different types of plucking techiniques at the same time. if i were to play it, it would just be a mess. only when i saw his fingers and the way they played it, i knew that it could only be done by a true master of the guitar and the standard of it would take too many years to achieve. yet, he's humble and thinks he has yet to perfect his music. WOW.
he also played the harp. OMFG now i know why they call it the heavenly instrument. mom says she bought his CD, ima hear it one day (: it was such an honour to watch this world class guitarist perform. his music, literally took my breath away. my emotions moved together with the music. floating in the air with all the trills, and it could also make my heart skip a beat as he added stronger feelings and speed to it.
i'm awed. i suddenly feel like joining tjc's guitar ensemble heh. (:
argh blisters again! stupid shoe FDHFDHFDHDF. just when i thought it healed the wound opens up again! rawr. *bites*
yesterday i had a GREAT time talking to my fellow piscean (: BIG LOVES TO YOU! <3 :D
today i got hongy to be my alarm clock, sigh but it didn't really work. i went back to sleep again for another hour x) haha. met deejee at 12nn, and ate lunch at bugis before heading off to buy some NAIL POLISHES! yatta~ i'm so in love with SASA now haha, all the nail polishes look so tempting and pretty! i think deejee is making me a body shop fan too haha. all the pretty things. I realised that I don't really pamper myself that much as others, maybe because I'm more to the 'natural' type and i'm always running around perspiring doing gay stuff haha. but it feels nice to look like a lady for once (in a blue moon HAHA). (:
then we went to watch zathura! omfg my heart nearly vibrated itself out of my body in the cinema. the music is soooo loud and they like to play the scary and thrilling music with ends with a big KABOOM! and scares us all. ZORGONS HERE AND THERE, THEY NEVER SEEM TO DIE WAH KNN! I HAD ENOUGH OF ZORGONS OKAY! wtf. but overall it was a good show, pretty funny at times and the ending was the best. ended with a funny note from the lead actor HAHA.
spent $ on other stuff, then went to deejee's house and walked her dog. a cute silky terrier! but bah, it's scary when it POUNCES on me and starts to scratch :D she sure hasn't changed one bit except on the physical side haha, but it's a good thing! (:
tomorrow ima wear dhs pe shirt and skirt again! hahaha i love my uniform lalala~ flag day tomorrow. i will try to be irritating and irritate the shit out of people and ask them to donate. i want my revenge! (on those teens who force me to donate to them lol) x)
i'm so stuck on westlife's FLY ME TO THE MOON now (: beautiful! i think i'm in love with jazz music :D
hmm, monday i went to hong yi's house for 6/1 gathering. wasn't an actual gathering, only about like uh, SEVEN people went? oh well, better than nothing. & hong yi's house is damn big. a bungalow with a pool like WTF. very pretty, i'll be happy to die in there (:
today i went out with 2G classmates. watched a movie and then ate then walked around and wasted time. oh well, it was raining and we couldn't do much. i love rainy days! not the kinds with thunderstorms but those with a light shower. makes me feel so good. okay, out of point. then we headed to the arcade in cineleisure. played a bit of daytona and puck, then watch some really darn pro bengs dance the DDR and para para machine. and when i say PRO, it's hell yeah a pro. they were like just swinging their hands around like hitting some fly with so much ease. and cleared every stage perfectly. damn, i think they could do it with their eyes closed. but it was pretty amusing and entertaining to watch them hoho. after that some people left and there were only me and 7 other people. kinda just sat down at a quiet corner of somerset mrt station and talked a bit. it was fun, i hope we can be like this during the chalet next week (: can't wait!
anyway, i've forgotten the purpose of my entry. i'm just blogging to un-bore myself hee.
The fit young man stood in the middle of the enormous, empty stone walled room which had a grand yet mysterious, gloomy aura that hung over it. The torches hung on the walls gave out wavering flames which cast dancing shadows that decorated the dimly lit room.
He stood perfectly still in silence, with his head bowed in respect.
A man fully cloaked in black steadily rose from his throne at the end of the room. He had eyes of the coldest ice, and a glare that would penetrate through anything with a slightest glance. He made his way down slowly towards the young man.
“Kill her at midnight.” The man stated in a deep sinister voice. The voice alone rang with evilness and sent out icy vibes, which could make even the coldest-blooded person shudder in fear. But to the young man, it was just another order. He held out a small photo.
The young man took it, and the faint light from the torches by the side of the room swept briefly across the face on the photo. His grip tightened. His eyes dilated and all blood in him froze. He felt his heart jerk out of place for a split second. A face of a young girl’s, familiar to the young man.
He looked back up at the cloaked man, the one who took him under his wing since he was a child when his heart was broken, the one who gave him years of cold, hard training, and also one of the very few people whom he trusted fully.
He stared back down. Dropping the photo to the floor, he turned his back to the cloaked man and headed towards the door silently, in resentment.
“A professional assassinator does his job without mixing any emotions in it. And I, as your master, have taught you well. You will obey me, my young successor.” The cloaked man growled. His voice flooding the room with creepiness.
It had stopped the young man abruptly in his steps for a few seconds. His fists clenched.
He continued his way out the door.
That night, the young assassinator sat alone in his dark cell room, with his back turned against the window. The room’s only source of light—the luminous moonlight—shone through. He gripped hard on the handle of his weapon, and ran his scarred fingers slowly down the deadly blade. The cold hard metal stung him.
He painfully recalled his master’s every single word.
Forbidden for anyone to see, a tear silently crept down his cheeks.
Stealthily without any sound, he pranced in and out of the shadows that hid him, like an easy dance he knew all too well. With lightning speed, he made his way to his target for the night.
Tonight’s mission will scar him like never before, unlike any other wounds that lives in his flesh, a cut which will sting so much worse than burning him alive.
He stood before the young girl who was now in lying peacefully in deep slumber. She looked so beautiful under the moonlight. It would probably be the last form of light she might ever feel upon her warm, delicate skin.
The young assassinator locked his heart, and raised his weapon into position.
He loved her.
And finished her off with silently with a deadly throat slice.
chuu ♥ ryohei, and here's my little tribute ^^;;
♥ TEH BIGGU LOVE (: ♥
kelly was supposed to meet me at bedok interchange at 12nn, but i was late, and i called to find kelly still sleeping at 12nn. very nice, (: lol. but in less than half an hour, we were heading down to east coast already.
rented a double bike so that it'll be more fun and cheaper. it sure was, there was this pay-one-hour-get-two-hours-free guy there lol. hurhur, then i must say! kelly and i were pretty damn steady on the bikes, we never did fall once, except the times when kelly tried to be funny and swerved left and right so dangerously i THOUGHT i was going to fall, and also this time when this guy chased us on his bike and suddenly cut in front of us, trying to make us stop so that he could get our numbers? i was pretty scared at first and told kelly to 'please cycle faster!' lol. in the end, he bumped into us and kelly's leg got scratched, we nearly fell but no, we just stopped for a while then quickly cycled faster to get away lol. kelly still had the nerve to shout back "谁的?" LMAO.
cycled from one end to the other end a few times, and it was pretty surprising to see 3 hours pass so fast. we stopped for dessert and drinks at the food centre too. ooh we shared a barbecued stingray for lunch! damn it was so delicious, and hot lol. we both had two cups of drinks x) but it costed like a whole eleven bucks for the stingray ><" rawr. after returning our bike, there wasn't much that we could do or go on foot, so we went the a nearby breakwater and just layed there till sunset, listening to kelly's iPOD and just talking. it was really peaceful and i could almost just sleep there and never get up forever. it was just beautiful to see the setting sun, the ocean, the waves lapping at the shores, and the beautiful sky laced with clouds. i so wanna do that again! (:
clene&lelly HAHA.
@ the breakwater, with the sun shining unto the sea.
pretty (dirty) east coast beach
sunset.
a steep road down to the waters.
& an amusing sign we saw on our way there x)
today the deconess (however you spell it) was preaching on resilence, and it really got me thinking about the many things in life, and what a paradox it is.
'to find meaning in suffering'
some people ask why are they the ones who suffer all these pain and hurt. people think that they don't deserve this, all that they're feeling now. so many questions, but no answers they're getting. people are constantly being reminded of their pain and therefore are unable to move on with life and do things like they once did. even if they do, they move on with fear and insecurity. they fear the things that remind them and trigger the horrible thoughts that haunts them, which they took such a long time to heal from these wounds. people often ask, 'why me?' but the saying goes, " all things happen for a reason. " it may be hard to look on the bright side, but once you do, you'll might be able to find answers to your questions. answers not to questions like 'what did i do & why do i have to suffer this' , but answers to questions more like 'why i suffered'. everything is planned, and happens for a reason, to shape our life, and shape the lives of the people around us when they see us. many people get inspired by other's lives. if some famous person did not go through all those tough times and succeed to where he is now, we wouldn't even have bothered. but these things to happen, for us to learn from it, the attitudes, the strengths that we should be taking up to face life.
the fragility of life
everyone knows that life is fragile. one minute you can be here, kicking and screaming; and the next minute you might not even be breathing on this planet any longer. the sudden changes, good or bad are predistined. as 'change is the only permanent thing on this earth', it reflects to us as how fragile our life can be. how the various thing in life can make us, and how they can instantly break us so easily as if by snapping a finger. all can change and turn upside down within a few seconds. people face all these emotions, most of the time mixed, and end up confused. suddenly the goal, the driving force in their life disappears, and people end up walking aimlessly, wondering where do they go from here. to say that life is predestined would be wrong, it is the various things in life that is predistined, so that we can make different choices from there, and from there we learn, and we grow. we aren't made to let the fragility of life control us, we're supposed to use the fragility of life to our advantage (not in that evil way).
the adversity in life
maybe within a few seconds, a relationship is over. maybe within a few minutes, a career would be ruined. maybe within a few years when things start to brew up, a family gets torned within a few minutes, just by a small trigger. how things can change so drastically. all those emotions of malevolence we feel. we feel so down, so depressed, so hurt. life took a swerve a hundred and eighty, and we find ourselves lost and alone. revenge, we often feel. anger, it often takes over us. we feel so bitter, so sour over everything that has happened, and spit at the people who are laughing so merrily around us. at first, it feels like the world has crumbled, and we've been torn to pieces. then slowly, we try to pick up those broken pieces, and lick our wounds of pain and suffering with the salt of bitterness and revenge. more often than not, the climb back up again to where we were previously is a slow, painful and difficult process. we find ourselves fighting within us nearly every second, braving all obstacles. but sometimes we just slip and fall back down again. what does it take to bring us up again? where is that strength and pushes us on? in who do we find it from? all these, together with unanswered questions lead to the creation of religion, where people mostly think that it provides them with their answers to life, oftenly all make-believe. it is through tough times like these, when people feel that they have lost it all, and need a strength so powerful to bring them back up again, they need a strength as powerful as the supernatural to satisfy their emotional needs, to make them feel happy. and it brings about the various religion and beliefs.
living in self denial
with a heart so torn, it is left to decay inside us, and it slowly overtakes us and eats the rest of us too, until the point where we are only left with an empty shell, inside so dry, hollow and numb. in other cases, we turn to self-denial, maybe what you call a fake optimist. we repeatly tell ourselves that things that aren't true. we start to believe in our own lies, and think that what has happened in real life was nothing but a dream. it's a way we try to give ourself self assurance and security. living amist all these lies around us, who do we turn to for help? how do we overcome this difficult period? hasn't it occurred to us that with every adversity we overcome, we grow stronger and we mature both mentally and physically? don't we feel more stabilised with our emotions? each adversity prepares us for the next to come, something even bigger and stronger that will knock us off our feet. yet we have to remain strong, as God says that he'll 'never give us more than what we can take'. all the things we've learned through those adversities. haven't we learn how to symphathise and cry for another who's going through the same thing? we'd give them our shoulder and tell them how to stand back on their feet again. all the things that come into our knowledge after we've been through it all. usually we'd just be replaying all the unhappy incidents in our life over and over again, getting depressed and the usual stuff, never believing that we'll stand back up on our feet again. wave after wave, we get more and more down. we're living this life, and why are we being broken by it? it is important to be able to wake up, and break through before we begin our climb back up. clean forgetting the sad and leaving them behind. scars stay, they'll forever remind, but they don't bleed anymore.
it's time we all believed and have faith, and take that little step to the road of recovery. it's time to learn what resilence is about, and share it to other people, only will then nothing will break us in life, mentally.
i am strong, when i am on your shoulder.
yesterday kelly & yanting came over to the park near my house to play volleyball at the playground. didn't play muched volleyball, but KICKED a lot of volleyball lol. we ended up sitting on this springing thing for kiddies, (we're too big to even sit in it lol) gayed around trying to balance the volleyball haha. it was so childish, people were staring like why the hell are these (bunch of loser) teenagers screaming so joyfully over this lame thing? ha. but i don't know why we had fun and enjoyed it lol. then we walked to a petrol station to get some drinks, kicking the volleyball along the way as we walked along the canal. then i, (the super clumsy screwed one) made a big mistake. i kicked the ball a little too hard, the ball flew over the railings and landed deep into the canal with a plop, into the dirty canal water. O_o funny thing is, kelly and yanting found it such fun to go down INTO the canal and retrieve the ball back. they could have died you know, if a tsunami decided to hit the canal =/
oh well, so they emptied their pouches and joined them together, to form some harness to pull yanting up later. (some brilliant survival skills you see there) carefully, yanting went through a tiny opening and went to the other side of the rail, where she slowly slid her way into the canal. made a safe landing, then walked down the canal a few metres to get the ball, throw it back up, then climbed halfway up again, grabbed hold of the 'harness', with me and kelly holding it tight to make sure it doesn't let go (which would result in yanting falling back into the canal again), and she pulled herself back over the railings and YAY! reunited with us again! it was really amusing, but if it wasn't for me, yanting wouldn't have her shoes soaked in canal mud. SORRY! ><" oh well, it attracted a lot of attention too haha. definitely something to be worth remembered. DAMN I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A VIDEO OF IT IN MY PHONE! KNS.
no plans so i had to stay at home today, well not quite. and i'm bored now, so i shall write about my day. spare some time to listen to my crap and i'll love you :D
woke up at 10am, (wow!) and surfed the internet, reading some real funny kick-ass shit. then got off and watched old dvds. i realised how i miss those times when i fangirl-ed and drooled over hot japanese boy bands whether breakdancing or not. the times when i used to scrimp and save over food and for self-leisure, just to buy every single dvd/cd/photobook/videos/magazines and stay up late into the night just to watch my downloads complete itself of the various boy bands i adore so much. those hot japanese guys whom i live and breathe for. (HAHAHA!) all of these just to prove i was a loyal and their number one fan. childish but, i like. until someone came along, took over their places and reigned first, before walking out of my life again leaving empty and broken spaces. left me alone, with those fan merchandise staring back at me.T-T
RANT! ♥
like, ZOMFGWTFXx~ oh, リョウヘイチバ（千葉涼平）♥ the love of my life! x) the ultimate hot breakdancing japanese guy and the uber cutie/sweetie, boy-next-doy character he has when he isn't on stage dancing hard~ if there was one person i'd be with before i die would be him! i guess long-standing fandom never does erode away does it? (: from a unstable teenager in search for his identity in the entertainment industry, he has grown into a fine young man sporting with confidence, yet still, the heart never changes. the homely one, every mother wants him as a son; yet the occasional goofball who never fails to make me smile/drool at his childlike actions. oh my prince charming! ♥ smart & sweet, and has a never-to-give-up attitude in life and whatever obstacles he faces, always believing in working harder and achieve new heights for himself. he's serious about his dancing, and his hot smooth dance moves just sweeps one off her feets. remarkable. I SO WANNA MARRY HIM LIKE DFGDGHDFGDFF !@#$%^&* ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥( x1000000)
sigh.
then played the piano, (hurhur what a joke) didn't know why i did that. i was just bored and lazy to use on the computer nor watch tv. then kelly came over at three! talked a bit at my house to waste away time until it was around five. then, we decided to cycle. had only one bicycle, so kelly fetched me. i sat behind her and she cycled. initially it was scary cause it was wobbling side to side but soon it was okay, no, it was in fact terrible fun x) people watched as they saw two girls on a bicycle shrieking their heads off, riding up and down the same road beside the canal, the place where the park brings back memories. cycled to seven eleven, got some food and drinks, and cycled back eating and drinking, (cause we didn't want to get bitten by mosquitoes so the best way we figured was to stay in motion, which was on the bicycle, HA.) then cycled to their other end of the road, u-turned and cycled to the other end, going back to seven eleven to get more food to eat, and cycled to the other end again. went on and on, wasn't tired of it actually. it was fun and a great way to pass time, talking too. simple yet meaningful (: it's wonderful to see how i waste my life away in the way that i like HAHAHA. then went back and watched tv till now.
had dozens of mosquito bites ):
class 2-5 ! (: an adorable class ne~ first hot guy is the one in white behind the hooded guys lol ♥ everyone else is cute hoho.
Class 2-5 ! (: second hot boy is the one beside me ♥
miki & me ! (: she's my buddy throughout the whole immersion and is really really nice!
* click on the pictures and scale them to 100% (:
最後の日！くそっ！悲しいね～ T-T last day. damn, i'm so sad ):
was left alone pretty much most of the time, but i'm okay with it, it beats trying to kill my brain cells over deciphering high level japanese (: wasn't really tired today, strange. didn't sleep during the lessons today hah. GO ME x) first off i had to attend a traditional japanese tea ceremony. omfg all those precise steps and instructions to follow so that we wouldn't be impolite if written down, could be as long as japan! how fussy. but it was amusing, haha. everyone screwed up and were impolite lol. i couldn't sit down like a japanese i realised. how they lock their legs and neatly tuck their feet below them amazes me. my foot would hurt badly. rawr, so i sat and put my feet to a side. me, what a loser LMAO. x) but the tea was GOOD. it was thick and concentrated, bitter but i liked it. not like the normal pokka green tea we would drink. we made some ourselves! had to stir this and that, and i realised that my right hand is pretty useless and slow x) muahaha. but no worries, we still had fun. they gave us little 'cakes' to eat too, DELICIOUS. for people with a sweet tooth like me (:
then we had cooking lessons! YEAH BABY. cooked miso soup! *my fave!* muahaha. it was really easy to cook. but we and meizue were scared of knives, so we were like AHHH & EEEEE all the while x) drank our miso soup later, mm yummy! wish i could cook it at home everyday. よっかった～ i think it was one of the most fun events that we did in there hoho.
then i sat through lessons like maths. they had a test, and the teacher thought that i would be left out and didn't want to be rude, so he gave me a piece to do. omg what do you get when you get a maths paper that's IN JAPANESE, ABOUT ALGEBRA AND GRAPHS?! FAIL of course. i bet i got like only 7/100 x) yeah baby see who rocks at maths lol. embarrassing. i was trying to figure out what the questions were about and most of the japanese students found it easy. they started sleeping 15 minutes into the paper omg WOW. *bows* how i suck haha.
sat through english class. easy peasy like ABC123XYZ. (: i could do everything with my eyes closed haha. okay i don't wanna be mean. then before school ended i took a class photo with them, will post it up later. basically i think they're school's VERY slack. they hardly do anything in class, it isn't that kinda stress that threatens to compress your head in my school yo. then i doubt they have any useful school rules. their's are like, no eating in class no going toilet no drinking, hand up homework on time blah blah. they CAN dye their hair, wear anything, any kind of shoes and so one. a whole lot of freedom. =\ blessed people.
had the closing ceremony at the end. i receied a diploma for this immersion やった！^^;; they gave me their school badge too. i will cherish it (: it's been a very very very good experience. though i'm always sleeping or doodling in their lessons, they were a really nice class haha. oh yes! miki wore her uber cute uniform for today's special occasion. HER UNIFORM IS THE ULTIMATE CUTEST THING EVER! high socks, short skirts and all. 超可愛い！*drool* the school gave me a few japanese textbooks, that i guess could cost a few hundred LIKE WHOA. i doubt i'll ever be able to read it because it's way hard and my japanese is sooo limited. (like i can only nod and shake my head haha) but i hope i'll be able to in due time. i'll work very hard to come again next year! (: but i wished they'd give us their uniforms instead of textbooks, it'll be REALLY SPECIAL then ^^ but it costs at least 500$ i heard =\ 怖い！x) but yeah, i'll trade anything for those cute uniforms! :D hoho.
oh yes, not forgetting my HOTJAPANESEGUYS rant! x)
DFHFTHFHFHT. now i have a photo of the class! in which there's so many cute guys in it and two uber hot ones. i think i'll hug the picture to sleep! ♥ x) *drools somemore* OMFG i saw MORE cute hot guys today with hot hair. they'd be burnin' man! ♥♥♥ *foams at the mouth* i even saw this dillon look alike! hurhur. the baby version i would say. i think from his forehead to his nose it looks exactly like him! however, he's more to the chubbier side, not as sharp as dillon but still! OMGWTFWOOTS! ♥ cuuuuttteeeee! *kidnaps* muahaha. yeah baby baby~ (: IMA TELL YOU THEY'RE SO HOT YOU'D MELT IN YOUR PANTS. *fans self* phew! the funny thing is, the guys don't really mix with the girls, besides discussing class stuff. though they sit next to girls, they never did talk at them or look at them. they just simply shout across the room to another guy or turn behind. and they're uber cute when they scold and get angry! ♥ *squishes* they're voices go really high and vocal. japanese are a pretty animated bunch, full of life hahaha. so adorable! ♥♥♥ the 15 year old guys look like 17 years old! and the 13 year olds look like they're 10 HAHAHA. omg JSS is the best school ever. so many pretty girls and guys! however the guys don't seem to be interested in the girls hahaa. WHY?! if you wanna know what's fashion. they have it all here. GANBAI to brown and gold highlighted hair! CHUUUU~ ♥♥♥ *takes more estasy*
omg if only kelly went with me. *sings to the POKEMON theme song*
"GOTTA RAPE 'EM ALL!" x) YOSH!
JSS 最高！♥
second day! dead tired i was. i couldn't sleep at night hence didn't have enough energy for today.
i kept dozing off during the lessons like maths and history and physical education blah blah, so much so that i even jerked the table! oh man, it was embarrassing. kaori smiled at me cause she knew i was bored. the teachers gave me worksheets so i wouldn't be left out but i coudn't even read any of it! made no sense to me. i'd rather use it as rough paper and do some doodling haha. but i don't feel nice drawing and defacing the pretty paper and text book lol. neither do i feel good sleeping in front of the teacher. japanese people emphasizes a lot on manners and politeness =
besides that, i played some traditional japanese hiragana cards, i didn't find it interesting, but what was interesting is to see how easily amused and happy the japanese get out of the lamest things. lame as in, not funny, but totally cold. oh well, i just played along. sang japanese songs about the seasons too. didn't really sing, just PRETENDED. i was way tired to listen to any teacher that day. during lunch break, i also mixed with miki's frkiends and we played poker cards together. weren't really playing poker, but what they call トランプ which i guess means TRUMP? haha. another lame game, but they liked it and enjoyed it. pretty boring but yeah, they're so lively and they kept laughing over the game i couldn't understand why. they had to explain the whole game in japanese with me. didn't understand too, but after watching them play, it was really easy. they tried to communicate with me too asking me how long i learnt japanese and all that stuff. haha, they're really a bunch of cute girls yo.
HOTJAPANESEBOYSRANT! yayyay* (:
i took notice of this guy who was sitting diagonally in front of me. he wasn't very good looking, but pleasant. had the typical japanese boy look. i took notice of him because out of everyone in the class, he seemed like the only one who i've ever seen SLEEPING on the table. and! in a very familiar position! the permanent position of lelly & clene! haha. like just sprawled on the table and sleeping like nobody's business. could tell he was really sleepy during the lesson haha. but the teacher didn't say much =\ oh and not forgetting the two hot japanese guys in the class! ♥ omfgomfg NOSEBLEED. *melts and solidifies* x) CHUUU~ waiii~ they're like prince charming or something. so many cute japanese guys in year 3! and a few in year 2! nice dyed, spiked and longgish hair which really blows you away. i shall spend the rest of my life nosebleeding without and regrets x) ♥♥♥ lovelovelovelove~ *takes more drugs* HOT CUTE JAP GUYS TOTALLY RULEzZzZzXxX. :D
after school, miki took me, together with her friend misaki and her buddy yi lin to heeren's print club to take purikuras (neoprints) OMG. i tell you, they're the pro-est neoprint-ers ever. you see, the japanese are the real originals and they're the experts at this. we totally left everything to them. had no trouble understanding the machine, and they really decorated the neoprints SO DAMNED BEAUTIFULLY! lovely neoprints :9
oh well, till tomorrow (:
had really little sleep the night before, and being tuned to waking up at like 1pm normally, forcing myself to wake up at 6am today was like sgysdjkfygsky. went all the way to clementi, so bloody far. oh well, but it was worth it (:
i sat around with meixue, waiting for the teacher to come and tell us what to do. shortly after a school bus arrived and the japanese students flocked out and passed us. man, they do sure have tonnes of energy at 7am. the minute they got off, a few shouted really loudly so to let the whole school hear, "お早うございます～" (good morning!) all of them exchanged greetings with their teachers with much enthusiasm and life. what about me? i simply nodded and smiled. thinking back of when i was in dhs, i NEVER did greet my teachers before, not even once, even if i did, i was only faking it. i never did greet my teachers in class before, much less greeting them when they walked past. and here, it just seems so fresh and all, like they were all looking forward to the new day or something.
okay now here' my rant. be prepared. (:
OMFG you know when those japanese students came out from the bus? they were like soooo fricken cute! the girls were like so cute in their clothes and all, had really nice hair and were all soooo pretty! とてもかわいいですね～ ♥ ^^;; and and the guys! OMFG THE GUYS! (not that i'm boy crazy) but i can't help it when i see japanese guys! they're just soooo cute and かっこいい ! ♥ the short and youngers ones are UBER CUTE! the taller ones are DAMN COOL i say, OMFG i think i can drool till i'm dry x) and the best part of it all? they all had FRICKIN' NICE HAIR DAMMIT. すばらしいよ～ ^^v those guys had really long hair, the kind of hairstyle that would just irritate the fats out of my school's dm butt! IT WAS DYED TOO. HOLY! ♥♥♥ they were damn good-looking! my school's guys when compared, are like just totally sissys, gays and nerds lol. oh the HOTNESS! ♥ *faintschokessplutterscoughs&dies* yeah so i was in this class, in which i found two guys really attractive hoho ♥ (: 真的是可爱得要命！♥
okay, so we all had to sit on stage for the opening ceremony when we'll be introduced to our buddies. the school's enrolment is realy small, but it was still nervewrecking to be on stage. i was introduced to my two buddies, kaori & miki. two cute japanese girls. then i followed them into a small classroom and sat beside kaori. first off i was made to do a self intro to the class, in english though, A BIG PHEW! i was shaking like a piece of paper x)
the teachers were really nice, they didn't really know how to communicate with me but they tried their very best! it's so touching omgZz HAHA. i went to science class, where i sat down beside miki for lab lesson. the difference in their lessons is that, the students there are REALLY close to their teachers. they have like a friend/friend relationship instead of the student/teacher relationship that i have in my school. it's a whole different thing you know, brightens things a lot more and puts more life in the lessons. during the lessons they speak and voice out their questions freely. can't really describe it in words, but yeah you have to see it for yourself to see the difference in cultures and the different attitudes they take on when they go to school. puts our local school students to shame.
i sat through maths, science lessons and the such, so yeah. actually the stuff they learn are somewhat of the same level as us, just that they don't do into much detail, they just teach the basics, then make them do some challenging problems. or maybe it's because i've learnt all i need to know that's why i find their stuff easy lol. then i sat through their japanese lesson. it was sooo difficult i couldn't understand a single bit of it. in the end, i got kinda tired and tried to hide while sleeping lol. i was really tired. and it was like 12nn and still no recess, no toilet, no drinking lol. wow these people. no wonder they're so skinny!
then there was lunch break. they took out their obentos to eat and i took out my lunchbox, because they had no canteen in their school. it's troublesome to bring lunch in your bag everyday, but oh well =\ it was a short period, then i went to the toilet haha. took pictures with my buddy too (:
after that it was music lesson! i got to try playing on this traditional japanese instrument that looks like the japanese gu zheng. that's their music lesson. so fascinating! x) i played the song sakurasakura yay! only the basic song though. other than that i screwed everything up hahaha x) but it was fun, the teachers were all so kind!
after that school ended, and miki showed me the way to the mrt station. she lives near me whee~ said she goes to parkway everyweek haha. she's like a really cute girl ^^ very outgoing and talks alot, very lively and full of energy. unlike me, sulking and sleepy whole day round. her english's pretty good too, surprisingly better than her japanese. with her i feel safe, cause she can translate things for me. with kaori, it's a bit difficult. she doesn't really know english and doesn't really talk much, so we just use simple japanese to communicate. she seems really smart to me x)
it was an enriching experience, and i hope the next two days will be better! (: tomorrow miki's taking me out to take purikuras (neoprints) yay! yatta ne~ ^^ oh and one last thing, OMGZZ HOT JAPANESE GUYS RULE! ♥♥♥ X3
so much so that i might want to consider being a nun or turn into a vegetarian and starve myself to make up for all the sin i've done ): OH THE PAIN!
went shopping with qian at orchard today. walked and walked and walked and walked back and walked somemore. qian that stupid buttfat spent like a KABOOM on clothes, so much that i can't count with my fingers and toes! (: but of course she had me, the very kind assistant to provide constructive comments on her outfits hurhur x) bought [425843684] tops, and bought like [425843684 minus 1] bottoms ha. embarrassed ourselves at pacific plaza even. (oh did i mention this salesguy at ripcurl was blahblahblahcute!blahblahblah)
i sinned. i bought a belt and two skirts. one of which i spent 90 bucks on it. (and i can't count it with my toes and fingers still heh) OH MAN. now that i realised, i'm in debted to qian, aka human/walking ATM, who kinda swished out some money to lend me lol. oh well, i didn't bring enough. ): but i feel bad, my heart aches like a bishbishdangdang for spending the $ that i saved so hard for. just like *snaps finger* that, it's gone. T-T uwaaa~ *bawls* i should seriously repent and ask for forgiveness! boohoo.
why so animated today? dunno also. =\ shopping feels GOOD (: but blisters don't ):
now, i seriously need to find a part-time job dammit.
i'm on a high! (:
today kelly came to my houe and we played at a playground nearby. hoho that's a very special place to me and it hold many dear memories. that's why although i'm moving house soon, i gave dad my request that we had to move to somewhere along the canal line where that playground/park will always be within my reach. (: how naive but yeah, i like. kelly brought her volleyball along to play but the thing had not much air, wasn't much fun. then we played on the swings and other stuffs, and felt like a six-year-old again. i laughed so hard at kelly. she was trying to be spastic and all, playing with something that looked like a bulldozer =
talked somemore at the swing outside my house, where we started making funny faces at each other and cracked ourselves up. strange thing is only when i'm with kelly do i become absolutely lame. HAHAHA. x) talk about gay bio partners for life lmao. trust us to really behave childishly (:
dad got me a new phone. WOW. now ima spend all my time on it haha. and to think that he was really mad with me the night before and threatened me, made me feel so fckdup eh. he's always contradicting his words. oh well, tomorrow ima accompany wenqian to shopping! (: time to spend the $ oohlala. :D
i am bored, & i am angry. so i picked up a few quizzes from hongyi's blog & quizilla to do. seriously i don't know why either. looks fun :/
You kill for revenge.
That is because you have lost something or
someone you held very dear. Now you can't seem
to get over the loss that marked your soul, and
the only solution is to go after the one person
who brought all this pain to you. Chances are
you are angry inside and you bottle everything
up and don't talk to anyone about it. People
may want to help, but you think that they can
never understand your pain and only get
frustrated because of this. But it is important
to see all that you have left and be thankful
of that even if you have lost something great.
It may not be true that Times heals all wounds,
but with time and talking about your feelings,
maybe the hurt will ease.
Main weapon: Yourself
Quote: "You can close your eyes to
reality but not to memories" -Stainslaw J.
Lec
Facial expression: Gritted teeth and
teary eyes
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try, having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you. Humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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yesterday! spent the day at tiffy's house with qian, lelly, zying, yanting,
PLAYING MAHJONG! :D
rocked. mahjong rocks my dhs socks hahaha. i think i 'm getting darn good at it. i shall polish up my skills till the chalets, and have a mahjong marathon and earn back my $$$ (: yayy. ate cup noodles! that's the life man. i shall grow up and be a tai tai. (best occupation ever) whole day manicure, facial, mahjong, and all that bling bling hoho.
today, went for the first training with tjc. i think the coach's really nice. he spoke to us and made me want to give badminton a second chance. damn, dilemma now. i don't know if i should continue badminton or go for something else. he made it sound like i can really grow and improve with the team, and not be neglected like before. sigh, i really don't know.
besides that, I'M SO HAPPY! ^_^ dunno why, maybe see my nice & short senior joey today that's why. no lah. muahahaha. i'm just HAPPY. i wanna be an ah lian. i don't know what guys see in lians. they fall for them like a some blinded dog. oh well, can't they just OPEN their eyes and see who their partner is? whatever. i shall be an ah lian too hahaha just you people wait!
then again, i feel drunk and drugged today. no wonder so HIGH. must be all that sugarrr :3 i talk so much nonsense.
{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode
A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D
Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good.
With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings.
Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality.
Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life.
Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.
Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.
♥REITA,
just because.
THEM
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